These photos were taken on March 7, 2020. It was a mini pre-birthday outing with my sister. Dumplings at Din Tai Fung and mid-afternoon drinks and snacks at my favorite bookstore that had just opened up a wine bar. Books and drinks, I couldn’t wait to spend more time there. These are the last evidence of an “outing” before the world changed about a week later. A world-wide pandemic hit and everything changed.
I’ve been working from home (thankful I have a job) since mid-March, everything just shut down, a sense of anxiety and scariness filled my nights. What was going to happen? How was this virus going to be contained? How many people had lost their lives? Hast the worst of the pandemic hit and if not, when was that going to happen? Going to the grocery store became a whole ordeal. Long were the days of forgetting something and running in and out to pick up something you forgot off your list. Parks closed as well as schools and churches. It almost felt like the end of the world.
Weeks went by and things were flattening (in California) and then civil unrest broke throughout the country because of another senseless death of a man by the hands of the police. Protests went down across every city in the U.S. Curfews were set but rightfully ignored by the protestors. People were (and still) are angry. Voices who rarely get heard or are straight out ignored were rising (again) to point out the systemic racism that has been going on for hundreds of years in this country. More weeks later, minor changes are happening. The doors to businesses are starting open. Leaders are vowing to change what has been in place for years. How far? Who knows? I go back to work on Tuesday. Only 3 days a week with a lot of restrictions.
I don’t know what I wanted to get out of this blog post but what I can do is hope. Hope that there isn’t another shut down. Hope that those who deserve justice and answers get it. Those who are saying things are going to actually change, do in fact change. I’m not naive. I know that hope can only go so far but I still have it. It’s what keeps me going and lets me enjoy the zoom calls with friends, the text messages with funny memes and the cute animal videos that make me smile. It’s what I have in this moment in history.